like a million parachutes

Like a million parachutes
The snow's coming down
I'll lock up the front door
And turn the lights down
In the glow of the street lights
I see them descend
Like a million parachutes
Small men on a mission

Today was one of those days where even the snow seemed to be on a mission. Everything was moving. The moon couldn't help but eclipse just to keep things interesting. All day long I was stressed out by the 10 or so things written down on my to-do list. As I sit here only checking off 4 of them I'm really quite tempted to freak out. College life is busy. Seriously, there's a lot of things I'm not good at yet. I'm not just talking about the actual subjects, there's the leaving on time for class and remembering to eat lunch part too. I'm really not comfortable with any of it yet. And that's why I think it was perfect that I read in the gospel of John this morning. In chapter 3 verse 30 specifically. "He must increase, but I must decrease." I can't even put into words what this passage has meant to me today. My checklist and my agenda were so big that even when I prayed for God to come in I didn't really let Him help because I still wasn't letting go of any thing to give Him room. He must increase BUT I have to decrease too. I can pray for Him to be bigger and help me out in my crazy college life, but I need to decrease too. Lord, I want you to increase! Help me to decrease so that you can have your way with me. I need you.